Rambling's of a Silly Lady

If you read those blog entries you can see how much it means to me to have a child. I go online and look at baby stuff all the time. I look at all the cribs and the ways I could decorate a nursery. Shoot I go as far as looking at set for toddlers and young children.

It's crazy but I want to have twins or more.

Yes it is insane. Don't ask me why. It's just been my dream. I love babies, I love kids. I love teaching them, I love playing with them. I like seeing as they discover new things.

Why do I want kids so bad? I don't know. I always have. Most dream of travel, of work, I dreamed of a family. Of a simple life.

I know now isn't the time. I know that. I just want to know that it is a possibility. Who knows what will happen so many things can change.

I think I would be a good mother, I know Rob would be an amazing father. I THINK our parents would be good grandparents.

Lord I really am rambling. I will end this now.

My Hearts Desire

(Old blogs from and old blog just putting them here.)

Some people find it weird that I feel like I was born to be a mother. More than anything ever in my whole I have wanted to be a mother My hearts desire to be a mother.

Children have this glow that brightens a room. That bring this instint in me to protect, to cherish, to love.

Wether or not I have my own is what plagues me now. The genetics I would pass onto the poor child are scarey. I went to the emergency room yesterday and they ask you your family history.... I asked if I could tell them what we haven't had. Also that it isn't counting mental illnesses.
I have always wanted to adopt. So many kids out there that need loving homes. I don't think blood makes a family. I believe it is in the heart. That is where family comes from.

What to do? What would you do?