Live to be Happy
I think everyone should live to be happy. They should strive to be happy. Do what it takes to get there.
Moi
Learn to Live. Live to Love. Love to Laugh.
George Bernard Shaw
“We don’t stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.”
(Old blogs from and old blog just putting them here.)
Some people find it weird that I feel like I was born to be a mother. More than anything ever in my whole I have wanted to be a mother My hearts desire to be a mother.
Children have this glow that brightens a room. That bring this instint in me to protect, to cherish, to love.
Wether or not I have my own is what plagues me now. The genetics I would pass onto the poor child are scarey. I went to the emergency room yesterday and they ask you your family history.... I asked if I could tell them what we haven't had. Also that it isn't counting mental illnesses.
I have always wanted to adopt. So many kids out there that need loving homes. I don't think blood makes a family. I believe it is in the heart. That is where family comes from.
What to do? What would you do?
Why does it seem like everyone can have kids but me? Why do I feel like it will never happen?
I have always wanted twins. Triplets would be a bonus.
I have always wanted a family but I don't think it will happen. It has trully been my one dream. I have dreamed of having a baby my whole life but I don't think it is in the cards for me for so many reasons.
It is funny I hear so many say they do not want kids. Yet they have them. Or that they don't like kids but they have three or four.
Why does it feel like it will never be my turn. I want a baby so bad. I feel it inside of me, so strongly. It overwhelms me at times. I don't know how to explain to people that the thought of me not having kids is trully one of the most painful things I have ever felt.
I think I will post tomorrow some of the reasons why I don't think it will happen.
